heart made of STONE

Let me clarify one thing about myself.

"I write things that I don’t have the ability to say them out loud"

Coward, I know. I guess I am.

Defensive, confused, denial.

Most of all, FRAGILE.

Words can break my believe, my heart, my strengths to million pieces.

Wrong words could kills my soul.

Wrong, strong words told straight on your face without thinking how much it’s going to break me.

Ungrateful people who never appreciate.

It’s unfortunate I have a heart made of glass.

Not diamond or gold.

But at least, it is not made of stone.

one DAy Before Puase

yeay....
welcome the HOly Ramadhan...
i love puase...
eventhou have to control myself from a lot of things
hehehe
too many to list i suppose
LOL!!!

once again
lepak2 in Gayvilion
yeay!!!
dis tyme was great
meet a lot of frens...
i love dis gathering
hehehe
as ususal...
pose..pose and pose...
strike a pose...
oustanding
hahahaha

sume pon giler2..hehehe
here are sum of the pics
check it out
hehehe
=p

Malam Pesta Muda Mudi

hye guys....
suppose i da bwat dis entry before2 dis
... but since cam ade prob sket dis lately...
so i postponed jap
hehehehe
notin much
just nk tunjuk a few pics tyme berlangsongnyer majlis
hehehehe
love to c those guys dressing up in a 50-60s yeay!!!
damn cool
its been an honored to win the 1st runner up for the best dress award
hahahah
even i kalah kat Nora Zain
tak kesah pon
hehehehe
=p
got a few cool activities dat nyte
besh2
mkn pon besh2
hehehehe =p

Graduation Day

yeay....finally i Graduated last 16 August 2008...
here are sum pics throughout the day.... =p

LOOSER

i always have those probs.
da same things happen
he to0k me for granted
didnt appreciate FRIENDSHIP
He is a LOOSER
and i dont deserve a fren like dat
i was born to be HAPPY
and have great FRENZ
those who really care bout me
VILLAINS always win at d beginning
but the GLORY wont last...
LOOSER is always a LOOSER
he is just a little challenge for me to b HAPPY in my LUCKY life
i might regret knowing him
but only GOD knows why
i tink its the best tyme for me to move on...
stay strong..n keep pushin on...

tagged again..LMAO!!!

Another tagged by someone. I have to do this since I have quite a free time.

1. Story behind your MySpace song?
Obviously my favorite track at the moment.
2. Whats bothering you right now?
My prob with my bff.. and my job seeking..
3. Do you close the door when you pee?
of kosh.

DESCRIBE YOUR:
4. Wallet?
TOPMAN; bought it myslef.
5. Wallpaper on your computer's desktop?
Windows default wallpaper.
6. Background on your cell phone?
i used my own created theme.
7. Jewelry worn daily?
none.
8. Where your default picture was taken?
a famosa
9. Eye color?
Dark brown.
10. Life:
not so happy at dis moment.
11. House:
nearby SEntul timor LRT station.

WHAT ARE YOU?
12. Doing this weekend?
dok umah ajork...tdow..tdow....party
13. Wearing?
simple tee n a boxer.
14.Wanting?
i just want him n a lot of present for my graduation day..LOL!!!
plus...i want a job too..im too rilex....
15. Where are you?
At home.
16. Listening to?
the Heart Of The Matter by india Arie
17. Have you ever hugged or kissed anyone lately?
evryday i supposed..u noe who..n i love hug n kisses
18. What do you smell like?
CK in2U
19. Eating?
JCO
20. Besides your bed, what is your favorite things?
My stuff..a lot of em...
21. Do you believe in a soul mate?
Of kosh....but somehow,bein single is great
22.Do you sleep naked?
nope..i sleep wif my abg..hahaha
23. Do you remember your dreams?
Sometymes.
24. Do you believe dreams come true?
absolutely!
25. Do you believe in miracles?
somehow i do...i always wanted to.
26. Do you burn easily in the sun?
Not really. sumtymes..i'll put on my sunblock.
27. Do you speak another language other than English?
Malay,singlish ...a bit of indonesian..hehehe..n plus bahase ponen..lalala
28. What's something you wish you could understand better?
Myself and myfwens n d one i love.
29. What did you do last weekend?
PD....
30. Who do you miss?
him and the rest dat really affect me....but the most is him n my late parents..
31. Have you ever been in a car crash?
Nope
32. Orange or apple juice?
Apple juice
33. Who were the last people you went somewhere with?
my clicks to the besday party lastnyte
34. What was the last text message you received?
"xpela kate skit owg kuar blek g kl sentral kot..xpon starbuck klcc..."from arxd
35. Last text message you sent?
"org blk da..nk mandi jap"
36. Last time you ate a home grown tomato?
dunno.
37. What is the closest thing to you that is blue?
My comforter,boxer.
38. What was the last thing you ate?
fries.
40. Whose house did you go to last night?
Nobody. i went out for a party.
41. Who was the last person you visited in the hospital?
my kazen.
42. Do you like someone right now?
yess..i am...
43. What do you wear more, slacks, jeans, or sweatpants?
Jeans.
44. What is the last movie you watched?
the Mummy
45. Where did you get the shirt you're wearing?
Wild Channel.
46. Coach or NFL game tickets?
coach.
47. Why did you kiss the last person you kissed?
tradition n daily routine...we r like brothers...kissing keep me healthy..LMAO!!!
48. Do you believe that you can change someone?
i do...in many kinds...
49. Do you want someone you can't have?
Yes. dats for sure.
50. Do you blame them, when you can't have them?
No. im no Angel.

LOL!!!

hye guys....
its been like a month i didnt update dis blog...
duhh.....lame giler...
n there's a lot of things happened in a month....
bittersweet....
too many too list...
sumtymes...i get tired with all dat happened in mylfye
the same things happened
well...
it's all coming back to me now
im not dat typo dat goin to blame others....
i just accept dat as a bless

well frens come n go
losing him will make me unhappy,but knowing dat he is happy,i take dat as a bless
before dis...
im the one dat gonna stand for myfwen...
tellin em wut to do...
n wut soeva
if dey got problem in lyfe n lovelyfe...
i will throw out my opinion....
do dis n do dat....

but when it happened on me
im the one who had prob....
i dunno wut to do
my fwens who always there bymyside
keep on tellin me to move on n stay strong
well love is not about bein miserable n unhappy...
i have to be cruel to be kind sumtymes....
i have to....

for all dis while....
im not happy
seriously...

eppy besday SHIRO n APAI

eppy besday CANCERian
yeay
dis entry goes special to shiro n apai
dear fwens....
just wanna wish both of u
a HAPPY BIRTHDAY
ngee
u guys r turning 23!!!
b pround of it....
scream from inside...
conquer the world...
CHEERS!!!
cant wait for the besday celebration
hiks....
ROCK THE WORLD!!!!

love....

MARKETPLACE..where all cute boys gather

erlow
cam da lamer tak update blog nieh
huhuhu
ntahlaa
cam agak buhsan plak cuti2 nie
hehehe

last saturday..we guys g marketplace...
first tyme g nieh...
tema merah plak tue
heheheh
gigih kitorg da rsvp sicne monday lagik
nk masok free katenyer
hahaha
kalu tak meraselaa byr 35
hahahahaha....=p

pergh....
tyme masok je dlm tue...heaven...
hahahahah
hotties r all around us
yeay!!!
since i bwk masok cam...
gigeh yerk snap pic dlm tue
even those yg i tak knl pown i snap gak
ngan alasan nnti i upload kat Fb n tag u guys
hahahaha

tp mmg beshlaa
meet those yg i knl kat Fb
hehehe
tell u wut...
my petbro nyer kwn form Philipine kater im only 15
hahahaha
mesti die heran camne i bley lepas msk club kn
hahahaha

ok down ere...
i selitkan some pics spnjg mlm tue
ngeee

i miss u

i miss the old me
i miss him...
i miss evryone dat close to me....
really2 miss...

ryte now...
i just feel dat im so UNWANTED
im hoping dat
there will b a day
we really talk our hearts out
just saying wut we think..
listening...
gave a piece of our brain..
and pour some heart..
get to know each other BETTER...

the less2 conversation wont help..
words can change a heart
well..wut wonders can it do?

there is no need to b paranoid if he dont choose u
realize...n breath...
be real....